Just the real me.... :)

That's it! No more nonsense....

2006-01-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

Damn angry today.... I am doing something on my com, then suddenly my dad don't know go and play around with the main power switch, end up my room electricity got cut off. The rest you know lah, I am working on my com, INSIDE my room! I didn't even save what I have done loh.... And to make things worse, he doesn't even admit that he's in the wrong! When I asked him why he go and play around with the switch, he even scolded me that he wants to find out what's wrong with the toaster. Come on loh.... If you don't know anything, don't be so 'geh khiang' loh.... Just be smart, don't act smart; khiang du ho, mai geh khiang! Worse is you don't even admit that you are wrong. That's the problem with the parents that I have; when things go wrong, they can rant blame everybody, except themselves. When you are wrong, just face the fact that you are wrong loh.... What's there to 'siam' about?! Sometimes I wonder do they know what is call 'self-reflection'.... Whatever it is, I still loved my mum a lot, cos she really does a lot for the family. As for my dad, however hard I tried to communicate with him, think there's always communication breakdown ba....

Decided to shift my blog to somewhere else. Reason? Initial thoughts of setting up this blog is to let people who knows me, knows what I am thinking about and how I have been getting on. Apparently, no one bothers to take a look, except for a few. However.... they seems to find pleasure in reading it and make fun of me this and that, rather than really care about me. Please.... I am looking to vent my frustration somewhere and hopefully I can have some consolations from somebody, not for you to dig at me. "Do not find your own happiness in someone else's sorrows." Therefore, I have decided to post here for the last time. I will be shifting somewhere within blogspot. Don't try to find out from me where, unless you really wants to show your care as a friend for me. Thank you....

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Cheers to the P-ballers!!!

2006-01-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

Went back to work today after a long weekend over the holiday period. Yawnz.... Felt so sleepy as I had not woke up so early for so many days, but bo bian.... Sianz.... If only I can find a job that I have passion for, then everyday at work would be like going for fun.... Reached Bedok in the morning and I saw the same crowd that's around last Tuesday, so many people that there's no place to move around. Nothing much to talk about, except being the info counter and helping out at the SAM. Was told that my posts are always very long and nagging, so decided to cut short. Hope it's not that boring.... haha.... Supposed to leave at 2pm for a meeting @ SPC, but left at 12plus as Glen went to the doc and got a mc. Guess his headache must be very bad, why else would he want to go to the doc after coming to work.... This reminds me of something; someone once told me that we can apply for half-day mc if we go to the doc in the afternoon after arriving for work. The logic? So that we have an extra day of mc, if we ever need it. Wonder is that really true....

Reached SPC at 1 plus and went to chat with TC and Rizuan as I am waiting for Siti to arrive before going for our meeting to discuss our road show schedule with Shima. The meeting lasted an hr plus as we discussed about the timing for the road show and Jovis, our AM, came in to talk about his working experiences. It's 5plus when we left and I thought I am going to be late, so I rushed home to get myself prepared. hehe....

Finally!!! It's been few weeks since the P-ballers had a game due to the festive/holiday period and rainy season. Though the game started with a bit of doubt with the dark clouds loming and followed by drizzles during the game, we decided to kick start 2006 with style and played on. Oh my.... the 1st game of 2006 in the 1st week of 2006 did we turn on the style. A total of 11 goals in a 8-3 scoreline! Well done to everyone who's present last night, esp Chris and Gary, who both got a hattrick each, while I also managed a hattrick, a hattrick of assists! That's better than a hattrick of goals to me.... Assists still feels better than goals. *smiles*. Supposed to go for dinner with Chris, but the weather do seems like it's gonna pour for hours anytime and we decided to have our makan session another day.

Came back home at 10plus as we played till quite late today to generate the 11 goals. The big game is on tonight! But at the time of 4am, don't think I am going to stay up for the game, unless I can't fall asleep again. haha....

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Tired, tired....

2006-01-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

Having a football game with Fu and co. at 2pm, but guess what time I woke up. 1.30pm!!! Yes! That's how late I nua in my bed till.... Didn't even have time for food as I don't usually like to eat anything 1 to 2 hrs before exercise, cos I will sure vomit.... But I feel damn hungry leh.... How??? Bo bian, I just grabbed a few pieces of apples that my mum cut before she went to JB on Friday. My mum always takes care of me very well one, which is why I am slogging away to make sure she can relax a bit in life and not work so hard now that she's in her 60's. I love you, mum.... Anyway, back to the game. As expected, I saw Chee Ming, Ah Hui, Kaixian, Guo Liang, etc.... But what I didn't expect is seeing Derek and Desmond, Henry and co. Didn't know that Fu actually called them as well. Maybe due to the fact that we don't have enough players ba.... Anyway, feels good to actually see such long time friends whom I have not met for years.... Games today is very dull, I can't think of a better way to describe it. What do you expect? 2 goals in 4 matches!!! It's street soccer at basketball court, not field game for goodness sake! If 3 teams around, no wonder that we have to rotate, even though there are no goals.... haha....

Met up with my parents for dinner after the game. Decided to eat with them instead of Fu and the others as my mum just came back from JB in the late afternoon. Ordered chicken rice and pig organs soup. BIG mistake! Shouldn't have told the boss from the chicken stall it's meant for 3 persons, end up she took over a big plate that 3 of us can't finish, though the soup from the pig organs stall is just nice. I almost can't make my way home from the amount of food intake and sore legs from the afternoon kicking.... Looking at myself, I thought I'm 4 months pregnant everytime I finished eating! Yes! That's how bad a shape I am in right now.... I remember telling hq that I want to get back my slim waist and fit body. How to like that when I am eating like nobody business??? Maybe I should visit some slimming centres and get some tibs on how to have a 26" waistline. hahaha....

Came back home and watching tv. What else but my fav, football! Again, I have to say this, Chelsea will stroll away with the title, they don't even have to walk or run, just take a relaxing stroll. What do you expect when they can win 4 matches in a row within 8 days, while Man Utd and Liverpool have already drawn one each, and Man Utd might not even win Arsenal after all with their 4th game tonight. Actually, the results are more or less as expected, except for 1. How can Wigan lose at home to Blackburn?! 3-0 somemore! Oh my goodness.... For your info, I have been a Wigan supporter just this season, after the marvellous performance that they put in against Chelsea in the first game of the season. Plus they have some good players in Henri Camara, Pascal Chimbonda, Arjan De Zeeuw, Damien Francis, etc.... In fact, I am raving for them to stay up. By the look of it, think they have a very high chance of surviving. *smiles*.

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A new year marks a new beginning....

2006-01-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!!! A new year marks a new beginning. After a few sessions of talks with a few of my friends, namely; Billy, TC and Wang. They made me realised that I might be able to plan my career and crave out something before I reach 30. And since it's a new year now, I would like to do it in a proper manner. Better time management, better step by step planning to reach my goals. If everything goes well, hopefully I will be able to get my degree and driving license in 5 years time.... Need time to save money and study mah.... Bo bian....

Due to the partying last night, slept at about 6am this morning. Actually, I'm already back at 3plus after the ktv at Partyworld, Orchard. Didn't go anywhere else cos everyone is working, except Peng and me, and they are tired.... Though back at 3plus, was chatting with Ren and helped him find out some of the courses that he's interested in. Managed to find 'Li Wei Song' school of Music and looked up some courses. Then I teased him, telling him go and sign up for the singing course, while I go and take up the lyrics writing course and we become partners in future. hahaha.... But he do have his dreams of becoming a singer lah, so wish him all the best loh.... Jia You!!! Yes! Yes! *smiles*.

Went to Sim Lim with hq to get my printer ink. Hopefully my printer still working cos it's been unused for 4 months at least liao. Sometimes, I am wondering; Why are we buying ink cartridge at $40 for black ink and another $28 to $35 for colour ink, total at around $75, when new printer costs less than $100 nowsdays.... Then after using it, can sell to garang guni. End up still worth paying for the ink right.... haha.... Maybe consider doing that if I find it more worthwhile. Every dollars count. *smiles*.

Came back home at 6plus due to the rain, watched a new taiwanese drama,'tian guo de jia yi'. Very very nice, esp the male lead, Chen Hai Nuo. He's so so devoted to Tao Ai Qing, starred by Wang Xing Lin. Taiwanses dramas is always so touching, esp the BGRs.... I still haven't watched my other shows yet, but saw this on CH56 so finish it 1st loh.... Not much time so only halfway through. If I sian to clear my room, which I can feel it, I will finish it tomorrow. Think watching drama better than clearing room. Haiz.... I will have to make do with my storeroom for CNY liao.... My mum sure going to nag at me again, but I know she means well so I also thiam thiam loh.... Pray for me! Make sure I am able to clear my room by next week.... hehe....

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Happy New Year!!! Live from Partyworld @ Orchard hours ago....

2005-12-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

Woke up this morning in cold sweat and I have this piece of advice for everyone who's looking at this now; whatever worries or problems that you have, don't think about it when you are ready to go to bed. It will cause you NIGHTMARES! Precisely the reason that I woke up in cold sweat. Dreamt that I am sitting at the edge of a skyscraper. so slippery that I am always going to fall off! It's so scary! Maybe I have encountered too many nightmares that I somehow seems to have the means to get myself awake before I sinked further into the unimaginable.... There was once when I dreamt that I'm chased by a vampire, that kind of old old chinese horror vampire dressed in Qing dynasty costume. Had the time of my life as I ran and hid from him, to the extend of stopping my breath! Developed further into a fierce fight with him as nowhere to hide after he found me and almost bitten by him. Fortunately, my mum woke me up in time as I am late for work. There's countless times when I dreamt that I am flying in the sky after running and jumping away from obstacles while escaping the clutches of 'something', which until now I still don't know what 'that' is.... That feeling of flying 10, 20 feet above ground is great! But not while you are landing as you can't control where you want to land, and there are unpleasant things that you want to avoid for sure.... So.... for those who have too many things on your mind, clear everything before you wash up and sleep, though it's not that easy I know....

Think I am never going to clear up my room, even if the CNY deadline set by my mum is nearing. Woke up at 11plus and went out only at 5pm, but during that 6 hours, I'm watching tv, dramas from my com, didn't even clear a single item at all! Sia lah.... I am that disorganised and no time-management to talk about. My intention is to clear up maybe 1/3 to 1/2 of my room during the Christmas period and another 1/3 or 1/2 this weekend so that CNY won't see my room so messy. End up right now I am still stuck at where I am 2 weeks back. Sianz.... Felt like throwing away everything that's in my room, regardless of what they are. But there's too many things that full of memories that are indispensable leh.... Argh!!!

Out at 5pm for an appt, which determines whether will I be able to earn extra money to finance my diploma and driving license. Met up with my prospect at 6.15pm and ironing out the details for about an hour. Managed to come to a conclusion, though the amount that I am going to earn, the % is a bit too low. But then again, they have the volume so not that bad after all. Only downfall of that? Maybe I have to incur more risk due to the volume loh....

Met hq at around 8pm. Thought of meeting him for dinner and go to Orchard together, but he says he going home for dinner. Sianz.... End up I have to eat alone at Orchard before waiting for the rest. I am waiting outside Partyworld where the Lamborghini Gallardo is based. It's so poish and high-class, which explains its price. The 2-seater sure shiok if you have your beloved one with you.... Peng arrived on the dot, as usual, while Ren came shortly after that. As hq and Hoe will be late, we went in 1st loh.... Hq came at about 10.15pm and Hoe supposed to be coming over from Bugis, but only see him at 11pm. Maybe he really walked over like what Peng says. haha.... 5 of us have not been together for months already, usually it's only Peng, Ren and me who goes to ktv like once every month. Hoe is busy with his work, as usual, while hq don't really like spending money. He's saving up for something lah, so can't pardon him. Really enjoyed the night, hope that we can do that more often in future. I really treasure this friendship, this long long friendship that lasted for almost 15 years, though they are a lapse in between. We actually went missing after secondary school and only got back together few years back, hq didn't actually joined the same secondary school as us. Whatever the case, whether it's from 1988 till now, or 2003 till now, it doesn't really matters to me. What matters is that we are together now, and many many more years to follow. Hope Hoe will be able to join us more often, not just once every few months or half a year. Hope Peng can continue to put up with my kpo-ness and my disorganisation. Hope Ren can continue to propose ktv sessions and get a better job soon. Hope hq will comtinue to meet up with me often for makan or kopi. Friendship forever guys!!!

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Learning and meeting day....

2005-12-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Had a nice chat with TC today at my branch cos I really got no mood to really work, and think he also know cos I told him quite a fair bit of what's happening. Things like the management, my boss(who rejected my friend's application when they are in need of staffs. Don't know what's he thinking about! Felt so bad for my friend, think I somehow resulted in him not getting the job....), the working style, how we are so lowly paid, etc.... Surprising, he some sort of agree with what I say and we went on to chat about what things should actually be done to improve our efficiency with the Prudential FCs, rate of referrals, manpower, etc.... For your info, there's only 3 CSEs including me, and right now one of my colleague is still down with chicken pox. If management really knows what they can do(and I think they know, just that they do not want to increase the operating costs), things would be so much better, whether for us(CSEs), CSOs or the FCs. But then again, we seems to be able to click quite well as we both have common interests, in investing. Whether in shares, stocks or UT, we seems to have a lot of talk about, esp shares. I learnt quite a fair bit of that from him. Thanks for the lecture, brother.... Really gain a lot from you. *smiles*.

Went to Plaza Sing after work due to a meeting with my fellow brothers of SSFC. We are planning something big and I really hope that it will pull off, cos it will definitely helps our team a fair bit. Another reason why I wanted it to work is simply because I have not been putting in efforts in the team's progress to date, and the reason why the team is still around is really due to the efforts of my brothers of the team, most notably Brandon. If not for him, and a few others, think the team would have been gone by now. Thanks a lot for the efforts put in, Brandon and co....

Came back at about 10pm, after meeting hq to get something from him. Got back home and chatted with some of my friends online and busy calling my buddies to confirm the ktv session tomorrow. Damn difficult to get a couple of them nowaday due to their work. Fortunately, everything turns out well and all 5 of us confirmed our availability. Well done.... Wait a minute! What the heck! Teo Heng is fully-booked for tomorrow! That's the responses I got after calling them up. Sianz!!! Why is it that things have to happen like this.... Argh!!! What's next like that??? Bo bian, last minute call up KBox and Partyworld on the rates. After comparing, decided to go to Partyworld @ Orchard as it's cheaper and I have to say that Partyworld do stands out in terms of service and sound system. Heng ah, everything is in place for a havoc night tomorrow as I called up and book the place at the time of 12am. *smiles*. Continued chatting with some of my friends online and managed to get myself out from the disappointment of unable to secure the services of Teo Heng. I am so afraid of calling off the thing, cos a few of them find it a bit too ex to sing at Partyworld. Of course lah! Partyworld adds up to about $30 to $35 per pax, while Teo Heng is only the most $20 per pax. Luckily, hq and Ren give me face and say ok, though it's going to burn a hole in their pocket, while Peng and Hoe says ok, as usual. They are the more 'anything' that type. Good.... *smiles*. Anyway, back to the chatting session. Peng seems to be in a good mood today, can joke and suan with me. Find some comfort in it, while the 2 little gals that I chatted with also makes my day with their little gals' talk. Thanks a lot, gals.... You know who I am talking about. *smiles*.

Same thing as usual, didn't really talked much to her, even though she's online for very long. As usual, not much responses from her throughout the chat, esp when I wanted to ask her out. Completely no reply, maybe she really do not want to go out with me bah.... Able to take it easy now, maybe when people say 'time heals all wounds', there's some truth in it....

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Angry, frustrated, upset, low-spirited....

2005-12-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

Another moody day, no mood at work, esp with this BDM. Sianz.... She's always nagging and nagging. Argh!!! Like what I said before, be it good or bad things, it have to happen at the same time, and I guess this week is a lousy week for me, cos it actually affected me badly enough that I can't be bothered to think about my sales. Can't even be bothered about 0 cases today. Guess it's really very bad.... I also don't know what struck me, is it because if you try to act normal, cheerful, entertaining, motivated too much, you will become more down when you finally become quiet? I am just a guy with simple words, don't know how to express myself in very chim words, but sometimes I also don't understand what I typed. Just type according to my feelings at that point of time.... Felt damn sucks! Damn lousy! Wonder what goes wrong.... Can someone just smack me and wake me up? It's such a terrible feeling. Maybe this is not what I want to do, that's why no interest at all.... I want to be an entertainer, which is why I went for the SuperHost contest, but why am I not having a chance to be one? My life is filled with ???s now, don't know where I am heading to, what I am heading to. I'm like a headless chicken, don't know where to go, don't know where will I go....

If I ever were to leave one day, I would appreciated it if someone can sponsor me by cremating me and book a plane for me. Spread my ashes from the sky and let it descend into the mountains, the oceans, the rivers, the forests. I don't need to have a funeral, just cremate me the moment you got my body. I do not wish to sadden those who loves me as the longer I am around in the funeral, the longer they will be hurt. And more people will know that I am gone. Just let me leave quietly, just as I came to this world quietly as well.... A ritual like that is going to be costly, hopefully someone can help me to leave with my last wish. I don't come from a rich family and definitely won't be able to afford it. Are YOU, the friend that will help me fulfil my last wish?

At this moment while I am updating my blog, I am talking to this little gal(16 yrs old) about BGR. She got her problems and I also got mine. I only knew her for few days, talked for a day and this is only my 2nd chat with her on msn. And yet it seems like we knew each other long ago, sharing some very personal things and comforting each other. Maybe that's what you call fate? When you are fated to be friends, it doesn't matter how long you know each other.... As we chat and chat, talk and talk, I began to talk about her.... Somehow, my heart still hurts when I talked about her. Wanted to send a card to her and asked for her address, but she tells me to send it to her office instead. Just wanted to send a cute little card with my personalised stamp to her, but yet she's like trying to refuse it.... It really breaks my heart.... Maybe we are just not fated to be together, maybe she's just not meant for me, maybe, maybe....

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2005-12-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Took a long long journey to Bukit Batok for a roadshow today. I have been going to far far places lately, seems like everything just falls together and I end up running around Singapore this month. Sianz.... Fortunately, today Siti is there, so is Angeline Jie. Not so bad lah, at least I got 2 persons to entertain me. hehe.... But something sad struck me very early in the day that I'm there. There's this indian auntie who I thought wanted to listen to the plans that we have, end up she's just taking a rest there. While I am sitting down with her, she tells me about her sad story and I sort of felt for her.... Told me that her husband died and left her with 2 children. How her daughter defy her and even scolds her, to the extend of telling her to go and die! That's very unfilial of her to say that of her mum, esp when her dad is not around and I am sure the auntie feels very sad about it too.... Fortunately she said that her son treats her very well, which is some sort of consolation loh.... Worse to follow is when she talks about her own mother and brothers, saying that they don't welcome her to their home at all. Only look for her whenever they want money from her.... Come on lah! It's not as if you guys, her 2 brothers, have no hands or legs. She's already lost her husband and not working, where to find money for you all??? Use your brains lah! Your should be helping her to get over this hard times, not adding to her burden! Damn shit one loh! This type of people can still exists now, they should go and die, instead of scolding the auntie and tell her to get lost, get out of their house and tell her to go and die somemore. Felt damn sad for her when she tells me all this as though I am her close friend. I know I won't be able to help much, but I just lend her a listening ear loh.... Sometimes, what they need is just someone to talk to, someone who can just listen to them.... Kind of hit me for the rest of the day and I can't really work cos I really felt very sad for her. End up, I just talked to Siti, Angeline and the promoters for the rest of the day without really referring, but still managed to get 1 close case. Not bad....

Meet up with Peng earlier as I managed to knock off early due to no mood to work. Yilin followed shortly while we are getting movie tickets. We headed to foodcourt for dinner while waiting for Ren. Regretted buying the tickets for 'The Promise'. It's a complete dumb show! If only I have other choices, I will not have watched it at all!

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Another all-time low of my life, I cried....

2005-12-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

Left for work at my branch today at Bedok. Supposed to be there to be the referral for Glenn, end up I was shocked when I am there! The place is packed! No room to even move around. Guess it's due to the PH yesterday and also end of the month, plus end of the year. That's what I told the customers though. hehe.... Due to the fact that there's such an overwhelming crowd throughout from 8plus to 4plus, I didn't really refer much. And also because Glenn is having a lunch appt and meeting later, he need to leave at 4pm, therefore didn't really have the mood to refer as he's busy with his appt, paperwork and meeting. End up being the information counter and SAM machine helper.... Uncles and aunties don't want to queue and don't know how to use the machine kept asking me to help them pay by SAM machine, cos the queue can easily take them an hour or 2. It's that crowded! So I spent almost the whole day helping people pay bills, tv tax, property tax, fines, etc.... Even got customers tell me to help them get stamps and top up the PUB meter. But I tell them sorry leh, cos cannot cut queue like that. Explained to them in a polite and playful manner and fortunately, the Bedok residents quite understanding so sort of enjoy my time there. I have to say this again! SingPost should employ me as the Customer Relationship Officer, I always managed to make customers happy with my services. I did help an auntie to buy a stamp and post the letter for her lah.... She quite pitiful leh.... Have to take care of 4 kids and the youngest gal kept crying cos it's too warm inside the branch. Think really too many people today lah.... I also helped her pay her bills using the SAM machine, cos she got ATM card, but don't know how to touch the screeen. After paying, she asks me to carry the baby gal for her as she need to keep her things. The gal is about 1 yr old the most, and she reminds me of Summer! Cute cute, and also crys when I carry her, think she's afraid of me, just like Summer when I wanted to carry her for the 1st time. But it's great, carrying baby like that, coaxing them along the way, makes me look so childish. *smiles* Felt like having my own children at that instant, don't know if I will ever have my own children, that's why I rushed at the opportunity to make Shao's daughter my god-daughter. But I have to admit that I have not been a good godpa so far, cos supposed to meet Shao on Sunday to pass him something and also to see Summer, but I too lazy to go out. Kind of felt guilty because of that, think I will make up to her by making time out to see her, and also play with her whenever I am there. Must get her to recognise me leh, otherwise if she's afraid of me how....

Met Billy for a coffee, or rather ching ting, at Cityhall after knocking off cos he need to pass me my policy. And of course, he really treats me like a buddy, cos he said that he will keep me updated when he got to know how to play around with a new money-making toy. It might be a vehicle to him, but I will look at it as a toy, cos I prefer to enjoy what I am doing, and the best way is to play. By playing, that's the best way to enjoy cos you have no pressure and you don't detest playing, do you? Anyway, after he shared with me his toy, I am really damn excited by the prospect. Now I am reading up on that thing that he told me about. Actually, he told me about it some time back and he tell me to wait for his 'research' 1st, see if it can be done. And true enough, after 3 months of researching, he's finally updating me liao. Very grateful to him for keeping me in the loop of about his efforts. Though he kept saying that he don't get anything out of it by telling me all this and getting me involved, in my heart I a bit doubtful. Though feeling guilty by saying that, cos he really treats me like a good friend and giving me useful advices all this while, I have to say that I never have the kind of good fortune to know people who will help me in any ways. I am always the one who have no luck with anything, anybody. Work, money, career, gals, whatever.... I always have nothing to talk good about. Nonetheless, I have this to say to my good brother, Billy: Though you might gain from what you do for me, which I feels you deserve it cos you have been such a good brother to me. If like what you say, you really don't gain anything at all from what you did for me, rest assured that you will get something from me should I ever succeed. Brother, I will always be grateful for what you did for me! *smiles*.

Got home in time to watch my fav show on air, SuperHost! I have to say that today's session a bit disappointing, cos most of the contestants screwed up their showing. Not that kind of typical performance you would expect from a future host. Speech very dull, like memorising script. No physical expressions to bring out what they want to say. But can't really find faults at them lah, cos it's testing their responses as they do not know what they are being tested on. And of course, who am I to find fault at them? I didn't even get into the 2nd round, but they got through to the knockout round. They must be better than me by a miles! *smiles* Though I find that all of them should be 'tao tai', but really feels sad for the gal that got knocked out eventually, cos she always managed to escape cos of her performance, but have to face the knocking out stage as she's always the last for the voting part. Today, she got knocked out straight cos as usual, she's the last for the voting and she performed the worst today, according to the judges. Kind of felt sad for her after listening to her personal story. She actually have an abortion due to some reasons.... Really feels sad that things like this is happening, maybe everyday. What are guys nowadays thinking about? If you want to enjoy, take precaution lah! If you don't, then bear the responsibility like what a man should do! Don't just enjoy and walk away as if nothing happens. Do you know how hurtful the gal would be? The kind of emotions that she's going through? Think more responsibly would you? What the heck sia! To think that the gal actually gave her all to you, including herself, and yet you don't appreciate her.... You just don't deserve it at all! Hopefully, what Xu Nai Ling told her do helps in a way or another. I am touched by what he said: Do whatever you feel like it, just be yourself. Don't be bothered by what people have to say about you. Just live your life the way you want it to be and enjoy it. Guess it's time I really do the things that I always wanted to, and not afraid of this and that. Just do it....

Maybe I should start off by telling her that I am interested in her. Maybe I should just woo her. Maybe I should.... Too many maybes in my mind whenever I face that issue. Maybe she can't even be bothered by what I say, by what I do. I am always the cowardly self whenever I face with this kind of problems.... I won't say that I am afraid to be embarrassed by her rejection, it's more on I might not be able to take it. My heart is always the most fragile when facing such an issue. The other time when I actually cried over something is when I am not selected for a football game way back in secondary school. At that time, football is my passion, and I actually cried in a corner when I wasn't picked for the game. There are times when my tears do flowed, in cinemas, at home watching shows when there's touching scenes, but those are tears of joy and tears of feeling touched. I seldom cried when I am hurt cos still can dong, and that particular day in Dec'95 was the only few times that I felt really hurt. Other than that, it has to be at my grandpa's funeral. He dotes on me a lot, and up till the day when he's about to be cremated, the tears really came down like a running tap.... I have not really treated him well when he's around, but he really treats me like a treasure, being the only male grandson of my dad. I hate myself for always don't know what's happening around me, and I have to say that I took my grandpa for granted when he dotes on me. I hate myself for being so immature and so unappreciative of what he did for me. Ah kong, I am sorry.... Hope you are able to hear this....

Happy Boxing Day!!!

2005-12-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 11am today, then managed to pack up my clothes and clear the old ones. Still thinking of giving the clothes to garang guni or pass it to the charitable organisations. There are some really new and those that I worn only a few times. I thinking too much lah.... Maybe before I can bring it to any social welfare centre, my mum would have give to the garang guni liao.... Went out to meet a new friend of mine, actually an insurance agent lah. Talked a bit of what she would want to plan for me, then talked about the business that she's in and I used to be in. Found out that she's quite a competent agent, from what she said of her clients being devoted to her, and not listening to other agents. Also talked about why her company is so different from others and how they are enthical. She's a gal that quite know what she wants, and what she is in this line for. Quite an impressive gal I have to say. But she's too confident at times of what she say and it sort of turns me off. Though she's one of the top producing agent, but can't really agree with what she says sometimes. But then again, we have our own thinkings and that might be what makes her different and why her clients are faithful to her. Let it be, let it be.... :)

Rushed down to kick with my usual khakis for football. Used to be every Tuesdays and Wednesdays, but they decided to have a go today cos it's a PH and been raining nowadays, so taking every chances to kick whenever possible. Got there at 8pm and they are already there for an hour liao. Supposed to be 7pm, but held up by my appt. Had a good game today, went unbeaten for 4 or 5 games before knocked out. Scored a hattrick and got an assist in the process, feels quite good. It's been a long time since I actually had such a good game. Maybe because I had talked to someone(insurance agent) who's enthusiastic before going kick so in quite an easy mood. Chee Ming today damn irritating loh.... Keeps telling me to pick the ball after I kicked away, but I can't be bothered loh.... When they kick, we also pick the ball for them what.... Then when I kick, I still have to pick ball, what kind of logic is that??? Worse is he is sitting at the stonechair waiting for his team to play loh.... The one who went to get the ball didn't even complain, what's he complaining about! But anyway, he's a nice guy lah, just that sometimes he tends to talk without thinking. *smiles*. Got back home so tired, maybe because of the 'OT' today lah.... Used to kick from 9pm to 10.30pm, but today I start at 8pm. An hour so much difference meh? Think I am getting old liao.... Wonder how long more can I carry on playing my most passionate sport.... Haiz....

Find that my long weekend is a bit wasted leh.... Sat went out, so can be pardoned. But I am at home the whole of yesterday and yet I only clear my room today. And it's only my clothes! And nothing else! What the heck am I doing.... Wasted the whole of yesterday don't know doing what.... Maybe I am thinking of too many things, thinking of what am I working so hard for, thinking of when my parents can enjoy their lives with me supporting them, thinking of how to clear the mess in my room, thinking of her esp.... The more I think of her, the more I wish to just bury myself in my pillow and lying on my bed. Without realising that it's already 7pm and my mum came to tell me dinner is ready. That's the reason why I can't find anything to post yesterday. Thinking back; I woke up at 1pm, mum called me for dinner. It's a whole 6hrs! I had just wasted 6hrs thinking of just her! That's the reason why I do not like to be alone, I will just waste my time away, esp in the night when it's so silent.... The feel for her is stronger, but I know that I do not have anything for her. To put it bluntly, I am just not good enough for her.... I have been listening to this cantonese song by 'Chen Hao Min'. It's in cantonese and the song title is 'gao(1) pan(1) bu(3) qi(3)'. Maybe she feels that way too, which is why she had not been very responsive towards me, whether to my sms or msn. Maybe I should just wake up from this undreamable dream. I wish I could, but can I really do it? She really gives me the feeling that had been missing for so long, ever since my schooldays when I had my 1st crush.... It took me actually 4 years to so-call forget her. Thinking of her once in a while rather than everyday, maybe that's what you would say forget. But when I met her again the other time, my heart is bleeding again.... Thought I would be able to get on with life, but it just not the way it should be. Until I met her.... 1st outing with her and some other friends is so fulfilling.... Had such a great time singing and taking pictures. But after that day, the rest is only memories of that day.... It was so long ago, but it feels like it just happened yesterday. How sweet the memories, but reality is often cruel.... Maybe it's another 4 years before I am 'happy' again. Or it might be sooner. Or it could be longer. I don't know.... Sometimes, I just wish to just delete everything about her. The pictures we took, her number, her msn, her friendster.... Everything that's got to do with her. Maybe I will forget her faster. But I just can't bear to do it.... Maybe I should start with her number, since she don't reply anyway.... But how hurt would that be? I don't know, and I don't wish to know.... 爱在孤独中绝望在绝望中坚强坚强后继续不停想着她....

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Merry Christmas!!!

2005-12-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

Shiok! I had not slept till 11am for so long, 12 days to be exact. That's the number of consecutive days that I had worked, from last Monday to this Friday. Tired!!! Got out of my bed at 12plus, start clearing a bit of my garbage dump and playing a bit of game. How long have I not touched my game liao.... Shiok! Finally getting ready to meet my buddy, or should I say sister. Hey! That makes me sounds like a gay.... Whatever, it's my darling lah.... Not my gf, but just a good gal friend of mine. Too bad, she's having a day full of dates liao.... Meeting her bf-to-be for dinner then meeting her good friends for countdown. End up, we only met for few minutes just to exchange our gifts. haha.... One look at it, I can see that we are exchanging different gifts. Heng ah! Otherwise really have to go leh long liao.... haha....My 2nd gift exchange of the year, and I am going to clear the stuff in my room to make space to keep it properly, together with John's gift. *smiles*.

Went over to Jurong East mrt to meet hq cos we are going for a church makan cum celebration invited by Aunty Linda, one of the aunty that I got to know from my company. She's almost 70, but she really don't looks like one. Still can move around and cook good food. She prepared pineapple rice for the makan today and it taste really.... nice! How I miss her food sia.... But very paisei sia.... The event starts at 7pm and we only reached there at 8plus. The cab jinx again lah! Everytime when I see a vacant cab passed by, sure have to wait damn long for the next available one. Damn suay also, kana hijacked twice by people in front of us. *angry* Worse to follow is when we got into this cab and the driver don't know where we are going and kept asking this and that. Didn't even start his car and he already started the meter. Shit sia! This kind of cabby.... Then when he finally got to know where we are going, he start saying how come we don't know where MINDEF is, who Tony Tan is. Please loh! Uncle! Don't know him is a crime ah! Ask police to arrest me lah! He even say he don't know how we managed to study till so educated, at least degree or diploma, when we don't even know who he is. Even question what we served NS for. I felt like telling him:" Uncle! I am only a 'O' levels student, not very highly educated! I served NS cos I am forced to, I have to, not because I am interested to serve the country!" Luckily, I am replying to Peng and Ren sms, I lun.... Felt like smacking his head and tell him:" Uncle, I am rushing for time, can you just keep your mouth shut and concentrate on driving faster!". I even say thank you to him when we alight. Haiz.... I am just too soft-hearted.... Luckily when we reached there, Aunty Linda is still busy settling her guests and getting all the food that others cooked as well ready, as usual.... Great! Can eat and keng gai with her. hehe.... hq and I decided to leave early as we have some other plans on, otherwise sure will stay for the singing and celebration session. Aiya! Forgot to take a pic with Aunty Linda as we are rushing off. Sianz.... She's like a godma to me loh.... Always have my heart and inviting to her church's events. Feel so sad that I actually forgotten about it. I still reminded myself when I kept my camera in my bag this afternoon. Damn forgetful sia....

Headed off to Orchard for the countdown. Kind of regretted it, kana attacked by the snow flakes spray by the people there.... Should have gone to Suntec, just wanna soaked in the atmosphere of the crowd countdown, ended up soap foam on my hair and hands. Argh!!! I wanna buy the spray and take revenge! But hq says don't want, waste money.... Diaoz.... Kind of got the wrong person to go for such celebrations with me.... That's the purpose of going to such things right.... Enjoy and play mah.... Otherwise, can just stay at home watch tv right.... Sianz.... Went to the place where I spent some memorable times with her, taken a few pics with hq there before making our way home. Tried to be cheerful and enthusiastic so that hq won't see my sadness that's going through me.... The lightings there had been dimmer and lesser, just like the light that she's filled me with that day when we are there. Now it had become so dark, just like the lightings at the place now.... Will the day ever comes whereby she will fills me with her sunshine again???

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Happy, stress, touching, worry, sad....

2005-12-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

Went to Marine Parade today for the roadshow, met Gerald there! Knew him as the SATA personnel for SingPost health check theme few weeks back. Quite a nice guy, and quite resourceful too. He's the kind that can click one, not the kind of you don't feel like talking to, even a few words seems a lot kind. He quite a straightforward kind, good to have such friends, don't have to worry about then backstabbing you. *smiles* Nearly got my second zero case-close roadshow for this month. Think I am going to kana warning letter soon if this kind of performance carries on.... If not for Edmund, he managed to help me close 2 cases. Many thanks to him leh.... He always managed to help me get out of jail, don't know how to repay him leh.... Haiz.... Kind of sick and tired of my job liao, esp with the low case-count lately and stress from the BDM, my boss and all the big bosses. Argh!!! When can I get out of this shit! Living from day to day, never having enough to spend. Sianz.... Today got 2 promoters for the roadshow, as usual.... Reached there in the morning, thought they are JC students, as it's always J1 or waiting to enrol Uni type. Didn't really talked to them much in the morning, cos quite stressed over the sales today. Morning got no crowd at all! Damn demoralising.... It's only until I came back from my break then tell them to separate themselves to help bring in more customers. Didn't really give me the kind of 'can talk' attitude cos I think they not happy that I tell them to each go one side, and they also seldom smile so a bit scare to talk to them. hehe.... After chit-chatting for a while then realised that they can keng one. And since the FCs there don't really like to talk to me, apart from Edmund and a few others, & Gerald, I go and chit chat with the 2 gals loh.... Anyway, can't talk to Gerald and the FCs loh, the boss will nag and nag. haha.... Surprisingly, the 2 gals quite direct and can take jokes quite well, so can click with them loh.... Not many gals can click with me, cos I am full of crap and childish. haha.... More surprisingly is that, they are both very enthusiastic about taking pictures! Same like me.... Managed to take a pic with them, looks so cartoon and act cute. haha.... That shows you how childish I am.... hehe....

Reached Great World City at 7.05pm, when I am supposed to be there at 6.45pm. Actually, I won't be late one loh! If not for the kiasu singaporean! I took bus 16 from Kallang to GWC, passing by Orchard. Just behind Orchard mrt, there's a busstop. The typical singaporeans damn shit one loh! They keep pushing and squeezing into the bus when there's literally no more space. I saw the traffic lights turn green twice or even thrice before the bus move off. DAMN shit one leh! Can't those peole wait for the next bus? Wait a while more will die is it! Can't understand them loh.... Whatever! Anyway, I am going to GWC because Derek actually invited me to his church's event. They booked the whole cinema for the showing of 'Narnia'! I actually watched it last night liao, but since he invited me, I went again loh.... Anyway, I wanted to watch it again loh, cos the story line is good and I missed the 1st 1o mins last night. Reason? Ren didn't decide what to watch and we only decide to watch it at the last min! Ren very shit one loh! haha.... Though it's a second time watching, some parts still touches me and I dropped tears because of it.... Parts like; when Lucy was found only left her coat with Peter after the riverfall, the 'hai li' said to Lucy she's well taken care of by her brother. So touching.... Also when Edmund finally turned to Peter, Susan and Lucy after he's rescued from the White Witch's clutches. That part of hugging really melts me.... And finally, the part when the 4 of them hugged each other at the end of the war, that scene easily touches every single hearts who were there.... Good show overall. *smiles*.

Came back home at 11plus due to dinner with Derek and Fu. Chit chatted about what type of business making money now, then talk about doing bird nest business and being fisherman, etc.... If only business is so easy and money comes so easy.... Haiz.... Chatted with her over msn again tonight, but didn't really talked much. Don't know is she upset or angry over something, seems agitated and impatient.... Hopefully she's ok, getting on fine. I really worries for her, if only she's reading this....

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Gutted by what this materialistic world had change the modern people....

2005-12-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

Suddenly realised that blogger actually had time stamp, which actually messed up my dating! Actually, I changed the date and time of my every posts, thinking that it will reflect what I posted for the day, instead of posting it at 1am and the date shows the next day. I usually update my post at about 1am plus, after watching my fav variety show,' Stingy Fortune God' aka 'xiao qi da cai sheng'. Very nice entertainment leh, esp with Xu Nai Ling & Zen Guo Chen. They damn funny loh.... And they make hosting looks so easy and enjoyable.... Maybe I will be like them one of these days??? I am daydreaming again.... Haiz....

Came back at 10 plus today after settling something and movie with Ren & his friend. Watched the 7pm 'Narnia' show, though we enter the cinema at 7.10pm. That Ren lah! Don't know what movie to watch and also didn't check the timing, though he reached Bedok at 5plus! End up I met him and his friend at almost 7pm and the show starts at 7pm. Quickly bought our tickets and rush in. Empress very punctual leh.... Show says 7pm and it starts at 7pm sia! Good.... Can go there for future shows, don't have to wait and also cheaper. *smiles* Quite a nice show, if you are into science-fiction. The story line not so bad, but there are a few very touching scenes and also teaches us to be smart, but not over-smart. Hokkien we call it:' khiang du ho, mai gei khiang'! Also teaches us the importance of family ties, it's not to be underestimated! 4 stars out of 5, rating by me. hehe....

Was having my dinner at the coffeeshop below my home and managed to catch the this part from the 9pm ch.8 show. It really pisses me off! The gal, charactered by Belinda, is so materialistic loh.... I remember she said to the guy who proposed to her:" How can you reject such a small request from me? I am going to call off the wedding if you can't afford to marry me!" I felt so sorry for the guy when he actually chased after her when she rushed off in a cab. This kind of gal sucks big time! Come on lah! You are marrying because of love or for money? You know what is call true love or not! If that's the case, might as well you go marry someone who's fucking rich and already 70, with one foot in the grave! You can get his money faster and let him play you loh.... No diff from being a whore!!! Can't stand this type of bitches, esp those who yearn to have a luxury lifestyle! Sometimes I am wondering; you want to be rich and live rich, but do you have the inner beauty to live like a upper class or not? What the point of wearing branded from head to toe, but you behave like a low-class auntie.... You want to mix with the upper class, but have you got what it takes?
I read this from my friend's blog and this is how she puts it: I am a little citizen in this little island, living from day to day. Trust me. The world needs people like us! We make the world last longer, we allow the resources to deplete slower.
How well she puts it, if only people can just think simple, live simple and not be too obsessed with fame and honour.... I admit that I am one who wants to be famous in one way or another, but I never yearn for the kind of upper class life. I hate the kind of people are so scheming and always plotting against one another. I prefer to be in the company of people, friends that's sincere to everyone, rather than being nice only to those who are useful to them. I rather treat everyone well and care about others' feelings, rather than just be nice to those who can give them what they want. Kind of hate this beautiful for what it is, because of people like these. They can do anything just to achieve their aim, without any regards for the people that they hurt.... Sorry for some of the vulgar words that I used, apologise to those who come across my blog. I REALLY HATE this kind of people !!!

This brings me to another feeling, angry yet sad.... Some people just do not know how much they are hurting people by just ignoring those who they felt are not friends to them. Just because you don't know them, or don't know them well enough, doesn't means that they can never be your good friends. How do you get your good friends, or best friends, buddies or sisters in the first place? It all starts with being just friends and keeping in touch right? Don't know why some people just don't know how to appreciate people who wants to be their friends and be nice to them. Call or sms always no replies, it really hurts those who cares.... There are no strangers in this world, just friends that we haven't met.

Haven't chat with her for few days, don't know how is she getting by.... Still sad over what happened the other day? Haven't seen her online also.... Wonder has she got over it.... I still care for her, but don't think she appreciate my efforts.... I hope to really do something for her, but don't know what can I do to lessen her pain.... Hate to see her pretending to be humorous and cheerful to disguise her sadness....

Any comments?

Happy! Happy!

2005-12-21T23:30:00.000+08:00

Went to a very very far place from my home for work today. Though the journey is an hour plus, I don't really feel sian, cos I am expecting good sales from there. Unexpectedly, it turn out to be another poor day. Never did I expect that the crowd there is so so different from the one the other time. Nobody seems interested to sit down loh.... Haiz.... My referring skills is getting worse and worse, sometimes don't even know what am I doing. Just passing days by days, years by years. Guess I am just waiting for the day where I say sayonara to this beautiful, yet sorrowful world.... Wishing that it would come faster, but thinking back of my parents, I guess I just have keep on going and going and going. Actually, not that bad today lah, at least I still find joy in talking to the CSOs and BM at the branch today. This is one of my fav branch, and a few others, as the staffs there are all very nice. *smiles*

Reached CCK at about 7plus to look for Ren and have dinner with him. After that, we talk cock there and wait for him to knock off, before going to meet Peng at Suntec. We are going for midnight ktv! Damn on loh, the 2 of them.... Jio me out for ktv from 11pm to 3am! But they are lucky loh.... Don't have to work the next day. Poor me, still have to go Novena for a road show tomorrow, or rather today. The time now? 4am in the morning! Came back and helped Ren to settle down before posting here. Ren came over to stay at my place cos he's going for an interview at SPC, nearer for him mah.... Really enjoyed myself today at Suntec KBox, though I have to say Teo Heng is better, more new songs and better sound quality. KBox? A bit cannot make it.... Too bad, TH closes at1am. Otherwise, we sure go there! haha.... Finally managed to sing those songs that I am not able to in the past, a bit on form today. haha.... Tried 'Xin Yue Tuan' and some of 'Zhou Jie Lun' very 'high pitch' songs and managed to finish it. Used to kana suck half way cos bo that pitch and bo stamina. But then again, I know myself, didn't really sounds nice though I didn't 'zou yin'. I am not a good singer lah.... haha.... Actually, come to think of it, 'Wu Yue Tian' songs some also quite high leh.... Ah Shin got very variable voice sia.... Tried a few of the rock and love songs, realised that I nearly kana stuck at a few instances. I don't really fancy rock songs, but Mayday rocks!!! haha.... Overall, quite happy today due to the great ktv session with my 2 buddies.... Really enjoy their company, though I know I am going to suffer tomorrow. How to survive with only 3 to 4 hours of sleep for consecutive few days! What's more, today only 2 hours the most.... yawnz yawnz.... But it's worth it. To me, I rather give up sleep to be with whoever wants my company, be it my parents, sister, friends or whoever. I hate to be alone, I tends to think of sad things.... Being able to talk to people makes me feel happier, whoever they are....

Don't know why is that whenever Peng sing this song at ktv, I will think of her.... Wondering if I am really living for her. I know it's not, cos I have my family and my friends. But I am always day-dreaming; will I be happier if she's with me? The song goes like this: wo wei ai chun zai, wo wei ni chun zai. ji mo li bu bian, lei guang li bu gai. yong chi xin dao gao, yong sheng qing den dai. ni zai mo tian chong tian ya xiang wo zou lai. I am looking forward to the day that I can tell her all this. If only that day ever comes....

Any comments?

Sad sad day....

2005-12-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

Got up late again for work.... Shit lah! If I am not going to do something about it, I am going to lose my job soon. Confirm! Haiz.... End up, I hope I wasn't there at all. Spend whole day there, only got 1 referral, no case closed at all! Not even 1.... Only 1 dollar for my 7 hrs of work today, not even enough to cover my transport, not to talk about my meals.... Poor. Poor. Actually, not so sad as I got a few nice nice photos taken at the stretch along Orchard mrt all the way to Devils' Bar. Pity that rain arrived and I wasn't able to take all the pics. Think I will go back one of these days before christmas and finish taking my pics. Besides taking the pics, I really don't know what am I doing the whole day at work today loh.... Seems so difficult to get customers to sit down nowadays. Maybe I am tired of my work liao.... It's not something that you would like to do, if not for the money. Yet, the money is not that great acutally.... I am like wasting my time, my life, my youth away. Just waiting for the day where I become old and lonely, and waiting to say bye bye to this beautiful yet sorrowful world....

Got back home and finally able to sit down with my parents and have a taste of my mum's home-cooked food. Kind of missed it so much that I didn't realise that I almost finished everything that mum cooked. Touches my heart and almost cried while eating it. To be honest, I have not ate my mum's cooking for months already, maybe once or twice in between. Other than that, foodcourt and coffeeshop seems to be where I fill my stomache. sobz sobz.... Went into my room to watch SuperHost after my dinner. Today's contestants performance not so good, but still the better ones got knocked out when I watched the results that followed at 11.30pm. How can the teacher be the least supported contestant??? A bit kelong sia.... End up he kana knocked out when the worst contestant should have been sent back home! I can't imagine that he managed to squeeze in again! What the heck! Fortunately, my local 'Wu Zong Xian' still around so can continue to watch . hehe.... Actually, I would have continue even if those I support all kana knock out cos I really love this show! haha....

Went for my kicking session with Fu and Chee Ming plus co after I finished my show cos tomorrow going for a midnight ktv session so won't be joining them. Gonna enjoy with my bunch of buddies, actually only 2 cos they are the most eng now. The others still have to work on Thursday, except for Ren(who's off on Thursday) and Peng(who's clearing his ORD leave). Don't ask me whether I have to work bo, of course I have to! But I still want to be in the company of my friends. I hate the kind of lonely feeling, which I am having constantly. I am a very lonely guy.... Surprisingly, today had not been a bad day for me, manage to turn on a bit of magic on the court, though everyone seems to be in holiday mood and don't really care about winning or losing. haha.... Managed to chip in with 2 assists, not too bad. :)

Ended my day chatting with her on msn. She's sounds impatient today so I asked her what's wrong. She didn't say anything initially and ask me about some songs that she's wanted. I tried getting for her, though she say she doesn't know the song title. I managed to get a few from that singer and sending it to her. Then she finally told me that she talked to her ex on msn earlier and she kind of miss him. That's really hurts me.... Though I am not feeling good, I still tried to console her. Just when I wanted to cheer her up, my stupid msn kana d/c! What the heck! Do you have to happen at this point of time??? Why??? I am damn upset and angry about it loh.... I tried restarting my com, but it doesn't works loh.... I am so pissed off by it that I want to, want to, argh!!! I am so sad! I can understand how she feels, cos that's exactly how I feel. I wanted to care for her, be there for her. But she do not want to give me the chance.... Therefore, I can only silently talked to her over msn, cos she won't even reply my sms. Don't know whether should I call her, don't think she will pick up my calls anyway.... Kind of becoming more and more negative about life, about anything that's I cross paths with now.... Don't know am I sinking deeper and deeper into depression.... Whenever I think of her, everything in front of me turns grey, into black and white without any colours to talk about.... How I wish I can tell her that I will treat her better than her ex. I will protect her and be there for her anytime she needs me. I might not be able to give her the best money can buy, but I can give her the best my heart can offer. I.... I.... There's so many many things that I want to tell her. If only I am given the chance to tell her, I love her....

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Sick....

2005-12-19T22:45:00.000+08:00

I am on mc today, due to my weak stomach.... Having the runs since last night and suffering the effects till this afternoon, before I am able to go to the doc at 2plus. Sianz.... Think SingPost really clash with my 'ba(1) zi(4)'. Always seeing doc since I took up this job, considering that I have not fall sick for years before this job. Haiz.... Sad sia.... After seeing the doc, went down to my mum and dad workplace to workship. Not that I am a devoted Buddist or Taoist or whatever. I go to churches and other temples as well. I'm a free-thinker and I go to such places either my mum told me to, or it's friends who ask me along. Same thing for this time, I went over cos my mum say I 'fan(4) tai(4) sui(4)' so I go and pray loh.... Though I don't really believe in all this, but since I am there, I pray with sincerity loh.... I always try to be as sincere as possible to everyone, to everything mah.... After praying to 'tai(4) sui(4)', my mum ask me want to pray to 'ti(1) gong(1)' or not. I say ok loh.... Since I am already there and my mum always cares for me.... My mum and I took the bus back after all the praying as my dad is riding a bike and he will get back faster than us.

Went for dinner with my mum and dad at our newly renovated market. How time flies.... 6 months have passed and I didn't really realise it. Makes no diff to me whether the market is renovated or not, cos I don't really have much time to go until there, though it's only 2 mins walk from my place. I usually settle my meals at the coffeeshop or foodcourt near my workplace. It's been ages since I can sit down and have a proper meal with my parents due to the heavy workload that I have. Feels guilty sometimes that I didn't spend much time with them. sobz sobz.... Hope I can have more time with them when I am more stable in my job, my career. Don't know when that will happen though.... Haiz....

Finally managed to get the red ruby that I have been looking for! Actually, not that I like ruby, but because I need it to ward off unlucky events, unlucky matters, unlucky happenings for the next 2 years. Got that advice while I am working so decided to heed the advice by this nice auntie. *smiles* It's not really a genuine one, cos one of that costs almost 3k! 3k loh.... If I have that kind of money, I would have bought something more practical for my mum and sis.... But I still spent 100 over bucks for that red ruby. Guess the auntie know that I am not very well-to-do so she actually told me don't have to get a genuine one, just need a man-made red ruby as a token. So nice of her.... I will definitely remember her if I am able to escape the next 2 years with good luck. Thinking of where to hang my lucky charm with me, finally decided to just hang it on my staff pass loh.... Easy and sure to remember. But I have a second thought; I won't be wearing my staff pass when I go out right.... Hm.... A penny for my thoughts at work tomorrow. hehe....

Listened to this song by 'xiao(3) hu(3) dui(4)'. Suddenly realise that I am an uncle liao, cos don't think youngsters nowadays know who they are. Anyway, part of the song goes like this: "叫你一声 my love, 亲爱的是否你也关心着我. 能不能叫你一声my love, 该不该把眼泪聚成弯弯的. 小河流把爱情唱做歌." I wonder when, or rather will I have the chance to sing the lyrics to her....

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Angry and Happy....

2005-12-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

Went to one of my best and worst branch today. Best as in I will be seeing her, I thought I will but she's off today. So sad.... Worst will be because of sales lah! No sales to talk about one loh, the people there damn one kind, always say they are rushing for this and there, don't know what is it that they can be so busy with. I hate it when people tell me they have no time. Only 5 mintues what! Not as if tell you to sit down and la kopi with me right.... I always suan them in my heart by saying: There are only 2 kinds of people who have no time; 1 is those who are not borned yet, the other 1 is those who have died, no life! Cos only these people have no time to talk about. I wonder which category do they belongs to.... Either 1 I also won't wish to see them, so don't appear in front of me and tell me you have no time! haha.... I felt so bad, didn't managed to help Yen Li to close any cases. She's quite good to me loh.... Gave me a lot of the free gifts for the road shows and she even gave me a personal gift. I went to her branch that day and saw a hp chain that looks very nice! Thought it's the road show gift, so I ask her can take or not. She say take loh.... I am so happy, but There's this very detestable guy that I met today, think he's worse than the 2 that tell me they have no time. While I am going through my sales tag-line, he gives me that kind of sarcastic action, nodding his head and go 'har.... har....'. Damn angry! When I tell him to give me 5 mins to let my colleague talk to him, he just look away, didn't even bother to say anything. I more angry!!! I waited for him to turn his head and 'diao' him hard before walking off. This kind of people should be locked up or kana accident, let him stay at home or in hospital forever, come out and spoil others' day only. Damn freaking angry!!! Worse to follow is when I went over to a few of the photoshop over at the shopping centre besides Meridien. Can't remember the building's name, I am a bit of road blind, road idiot. Never mind about that, but I am going to blacklist those shops around there. The customer service over there sucks! The Kodah is worst, esp the auntie. She's damn inflexible one loh.... Here's what happens:
Me:" Hello.... Can you do me a favour?(She's talking on the phone, but hang up after I walked over)

Her:" What?"

Me:" I wanted to print mystamps at the SingPost, but their card reader do not have the size for my Olympus camera. Can you help me to transfer 1 photo from my camera to my thumbdrive? I have my own and I only need to transfer 1. Can?"(I am in a defensive mode cos I know a lot of them won't help)

Her:" We charge for that."(As expected)

Me:" How much is it?"

Her:" $10. We burn it into a CD for you."

Me:" But I only need a photo. A CD can put in few hundreds leh.... You do me a favour lah.... Just download in into your pc, transfer to my thumbdrive and delete it loh.... No one will know one mah.... Can?"

Her:" Cannot lah! Like that company not making money, where I get my salary?"(She sounds impatient liao....)

Me:" Please.... I just need to transfer 1 photo only. Just 1...."(I am thinking to myself: If you really want to make money for your boss, you would have stand outside and looking for business, not talking over the phone!)

Her:" Cannot lah! If everyone like that, how to make money?"

Me:" Help me lah.... Auntie...."(Damn angry liao, but still sounds in a pleading manner)

Her:" Cannot! Cannot!"(She seems like chasing me away)

I walked off after that, but I 'diao' her all the way while I am walking off.... She looked back and I stared harder! Can these people be a bit more flexible and help a bit? What's so difficult about transferring a photo? Charging me $10 to transfer 1 photo. I repeat, it's ONE photo, and wasting 1 CD like that. What are they thinking?! It's not as if I am backing up tens or hundreds of photos. It's just ONE! Don't understand why people can be so unhelpful! Makes me felt so helpless....

Went to meet my sis at PS because need to buy my christmas gift to exchange with my 'darling'.... Not my gf lah, but rather one of my close friends.... One of those who makes me feel very at ease when talking to her, cos we spoke in our 'native' language and she's able to take jokes of any kind. Considering that she's a gal, 'nan(2) de(2)' she's not the petty, typical girls.... Great to have someone like her as a friend. But she's kind of busy always, having lunch with her or a drink is always so difficult. I always appreciate and treasure every little time with her cos she's one of those who really cares.... Too bad she's too tall, not my type, and she also don't like guys who shorter than 1.8m. I also not considering gals who are taller than me. Therefore no chemistry.... haha.... But I will always treasure her as a good friend, close friend, and hopefully this friendship will last forever and ever, years and decades to come. :) Got my gift, but because need to wrap, so went shop shop with my sis and bro-in-law, as well as the 2 kids @ Carrefour. Promised to buy them christmas gifts, end up only bought for my nephew cos my niece can't find anything that she wants. Guess have to bring her somewhere else loh.... Finally managed to find a place where the people are kind enough to help me transfer my photo for me. The store? Best Denki! The people there sure best! Best attitude, best service! I will definitely consider buying things at that branch if I need any electrical appliances, for their attitude towards customers are great! That's what you call 'customer service', for goodness sake. Actually, I am not that annoyed by the Kodak shop's auntie's words. What she says makes sense; no business, no money to pay salary. But what irritates me is her ATTITUDE! You can always reject me in a polite manner right.... It's not as if I have not been rejected before asking to transfer photo for me. Sometimes, I am wondering what am I doing.... I have to be polite and kana scolded and rejected and feels angry, have to please customers and watch what I say when I work. Now that I am a customer, I still have to be polite, be courteous and kana scolded! My life sucks! Don't know what I am living for, what I am alive for.... Luckily, I still have my mum, my dad, my sis and a bunch of good friends, Yuan, Ren, Peng, hq, Hoe(but wonder how's he's doing, have not met him for months liao), and also Chris and p-ball khakis, Chee Ming, Fu and co.... Of course, there's Athene, my darling lah.... If not for you all, I really don't know what kept me going.... Thanks for being there for me always whenever I need you all.... Smiles smiles....

Went back to Killiney after that to make my 'mystamps' as I managed to get my thumbdrive uploaded with my photo. Happy! Met hq after that for a drink and also collecting my speakers from him. Got a set of Creative speakers from him as he got special discount. Great! Haven't tried out the speakers yet, bo time leh.... Maybe try it tomorrow or whenever loh.... hehe.... Talked about the nasty auntie and how I would get back to her if she ever come to ask me for help in P.O in future. I will make her life damn difficult! hahaha.... Chit chatted for a while, an hour plus to be exact, then we headed home loh.... Got to work tomorrow leh.... Fortunately, we stayed quite near to each other so not so bad. Smiles again.... Watched Arsenal vs Chelsea when I'm home. Arsenal sucks nowadays! Can lose at home to Chelsea and lost 3 games in a row! What the heck! Very disappointing.... Guess Chelsea gonna break all sorts of records and win the EPL before Chinese New Year. Sianz....

Was watching this Taiwan drama series and find that the guy really very 'chi(1) qing(2)'. Knowing well that the gal doesn't like her, but yet he still stand by her side, help her to get close to the guy that she likes, be there for her whenever she needs him. "If that's your decision, I will support you. All I ask is just be by your side." If only she gives me a chance to do so....

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XBox day @ Stan's place....

2005-12-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

Feeling damn stone at work today due to only 3 hrs of sleep. Yawnz Yawnz.... Even then, I still quite sober and talking to almost every customers about the road show and promotion. Wonder why.... Probably because I have to refer to Bernard and Edmund and Lynn cos promised them beforehand. Hopefully I did enough loh... Didn't really refer much to Edmund and Lynn, supposed to have a confirm closed case for Lynn, end up she's busy on the phone so I passed it to Bernard. She seems angry so scare to approach her, end up Bernard really close that customer. haha.... I have to pay her back for this customer at the next road show, if I sees her again. hehe.... This month very suay loh.... Most road show didn't close more than 5 per day, some only 1 or 2. Damn frustated! Bo enough money to spend sia.... Still have to buy a PC for my sister, got to buy a red ruby for myself, save for my Taiwan trip next Feb, etc.... Sianz.... If only customers can be more approachable....

Settled everything at about 4pm, went over to Stan's place at around 5pm. Played a bit of XBox winning eleven and cards. I didn't played much lah, the others are playing mahjong and big2. Just about enough for the game, I am like the odd one out, but it's ok loh.... I get to play a a bit of winning eleven with Chris, Kheng Chuan, and Gary. Actually, it's good enough to just be in their company, never mind playing or not.... I also quite tired and I dozed off for a few times in between breaks and watching Man Utd against Villa. Finally get to see the Man Utd of old, attack with purpose and excitement. Shit sia! Park Ji Sung should have scored loh.... If not for the post. He's really the only Korean player that catches my eye. I don't like the other Korean players. In fact, I hated them! Cos I'm a Japan supporter mah, esp Nakata(both Hidetoshi and Koji), Nakamura, Inamoto and Kawaguchi. Japan rulez!!! hehe....

Wanted to take bus from the interchange, end up reach there at about 12am and the last train had left. Damn poor lately cos of my comm lah! Delayed for 1 month and I can only get my money on the 15th Jan. Now can't even afford to take cab. Sianz.... But bo bian, thought of staying at my sis's place, but thought of coming home cos I already stayed out the night before at Keong's chalet liao.... Kind of miss home. Believe it or not, I am the more homely type. hehe.... Reached home at 1plus and here I am posting this loh.... Seems like good things and bad things always happen at the same time. Like this week, I am happy almost everyday as I have continous gatherings and working with good colleagues, those that can talk cock with me. Shiok! Not to mention the few weeks that caused me a lot of stress and unhappiness, things always seems to happen together, if you have notice for yourself.... Nonetheless, since I am happy, I will look forward to more happy days ahead. If only I can get her to go out with me, even for a couple of hours. All I ask is just to see her....

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Good mood for chit chat, work and.... chalet!

2005-12-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

Went to CCK for a roadshow today. Damn far loh! I have to travel 1hr plus on the mrt just to get there. Plus no seat to sit, have to stand all the way. My legs damn sore even before my day starts. Anyway, enjoyed myself there as TC is there and I sort of feel very high lately. Don't know whats the reason behind it, but just feel high loh.... Maybe when you feel down for too long, you tends to bounce back feeling more crazy, more on, more bo chay what people think of you. Or maybe it's just the high period before dipping further down when you think back of the sad things that's been around or going to happen.... Had a great time there talk cock and also getting customers for TC and Rina. Somehow, feels good getting customers for those FCs who know how to 'zuo(4) ren(2)'. Whenever they got any customers on their own, they always never forget me. hehe.... That's why I feel good and willingly whenever they tell me to get customers for them. Yes sir! Yes Mum! hehe.... I don't like those FCs most when they always tell me to refer customers to them, but yet when they close cases that they get on their own, they rather give it to the CSOs then give it to me. Worst is that they even demand that I refer cusomers to them and tell me in a very commanding and yaya tone. My job is to refer customers, no doubt! I am paid to do it, yes! But I also have the right to refer to other FCs and not to you all loh.... Don't even have my heart and you expect me to do things willingly for you, sorry loh.... You can wait long long! haha....

After I finished everything on the road show, after doing all the paperwork, I took the longest journey that you can think of on the mrt, all the way from CCK to Pasir Ris! Reason? I am going there to a chalet organised by my friend, Keong! Somehow decided to stay overnight there even though I am working tomorrow as I wanted to spend some time with them and enjoy myself at the same time. John, Jerry, Jannie, Cedric and family was there, together with Nat and Annie with some others. For the odd time, I do not have to bbq cos the others are so enthusiastic about it, so I just wait to be served loh.... haha.... Then we have the cake that Keong specially bought with his voucher to celebrate his anniversary at Synergy. Like that cake, even though it had little or no green tea taste. It's supposed to be a green tea cake, but taste more of the chocolate and red beans. haha.... Following the great feast, we exchange our gifts for christmas! First time that I have christmas gifts to exchange, don't know to be happy or sad.... People who have good friends already start exchanging gifts at the age of 5 of 10. And I am only doing such meaningful thing after 25 years.... Sad.... Fortunately, I got an air-freshener from John for the gift exchange. Oh my.... He sure know that's what I need most. My sister always been saying that my room got a smell. Ya loh, jie.... Bo bian leh.... That's my living room, bedroom, dining room and also my store room! haha....After everyone had their full, and some of them left as they're not staying overnight, John, Jerry, Keong, Annie and I played card and dice games throughout the night, all the way till 5am! Gosh! I still need to work at 10am sia.... End up I only hah 3 hrs to sleep. Yawnz, yawnz.... Nonetheless, I had a great time lah. Long long time bo stay throughout the night liao....Esp with some of my good friends. hehe.... Shiok sia! haha.... But the aftermath is unbearable. Got up at 8am, but still unwilling to get up and get changed. Lying here, lying there. Until I finally decided that enough is enough! I have to wash up! Not that I wanted to, but it's already 9.30am! I am working at 10am, so have to wake up loh.... Bo options. haha....

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Change of blogging site

2005-12-15T22:00:00.000+08:00

This is my 2nd blog after Friendster.... Shifted my site due to Friendster sending reminders about updates, kana complaint by my friends.... haha.... Maybe I will take some time to play around with my new playtoy. haha.... Meanwhile, guys and gals, enjoy blogging....